I keep hearing so many things about how this world is terrible. I firmly believe it’s not. It’s neutral and chaotic, at times overwhelmingly cruel, and at other times fantastically kind. Humans are the same. I think as long as I keep trying to be one of the kind ones, I’m doing my part in this grand old play.
I don’t know why we’re here on the whole. Some animals are food, others hunt, but what are we here for? Making oddities, consuming everything, comforting each other? But I know I must be here because there’s things only I can do, make, experience. We all make this world a more interesting place.
This year has been full of loss and haunted by death - taking some of the best of us, human or no. I want it to end. Still, it makes me appreciate the life we do have here.
Sorry to get sentimental. With recent current events, a lot has been on my mind. Depression, suicide, death, right and wrong. It hits very close to home. I’ve probably been depressed for a very long time. I care about a lot of people struggling with darkness.
One of them lost his sister yesterday, and I can only pray the darkness doesn’t swallow him whole. I can only be kind, and being kind isn’t about easing my own mind - but giving people what they need, whether that’s a shoulder to cry on, or a sense that everything is normal and ok. For him, it’s the latter.
I’m learning. I worry, but that goes nowhere. It’s about doing right by your fellow man.
This world is random and at times cruel, but we don’t have to be.
From now on Im going to speak like an anime protagonist giving an inspirational speech, because….. *clenches fist* because there are people who believe in me! People who are constantly giving me strength! And even if they’re not with me right now…. *faint smile at the ground*…. They’re always sending me their wishes a-and I want to be able to give them courage too!!!!
space-lesbians said: have you tried taking Benadryl/night time cold meds/maybe drinking a little alcohol to help you sleep? Exercise is a great thing to do for overall mental health. Staying busy is also good. I do best if I’m out of the house for most of the day.
Alcohol is actually probably part of my problem lol. A nighttime drink when I work nights doesn’t give me much time to wind down from it. But, solid advice on the exercise and keeping busy - definitely going to try to do more of that.
emotionally manipulative things you should never say to people:
- "i would kill myself without you"
- "everyone leaves me, don’t leave me like they did"
- basically anything that guilts the other person into staying in a relationship with you
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